Past is the past

I have made my past as a past, but I am still a good person... because turning my back and walking away from another person just isn't my style... it's just not my core...

If today my decision of having a life is wrong... then so be it... because I found that person who I can give all my heart to and also gave his all to me...
I am very satisfied with who I have chosen because I genuinely think that this man is the man who I can spend the rest of my life with and I really do love him...

I try my best to be a good person... I am a human, I don't just stop loving another person when I leave them... so no matter what happened... I will still care... eventually I will still give in my best care and best support that I can...

But for me to help you... you must first help yourself... I have done and said all that I can... so all that's left is to wait... I wish that someday, you will see what I have done for you and stand back up... hoping that the people I placed beside you can help guide you back on the right tract too...

Summary of the day is, I will always care and I will always be there to help out for as much as I could... I do know that it might not be fair for L... but if he truly knows me, then he will see that me trying to help and loving him has no contradictions at all...

I believe that I am doing the right thing, and I believe that someday... L can see that he choose the right person because he had choose one that still understand the meaning of compassion...

Moment :-)

There are things I am very confuse about will emerge out of nowhere from time to time... And I seem to be encountering one particularly confusing issue here~

I believe that if you are in love with a person... it happens in a moment... a moment that makes everything you see about him became magical... good... And makes you feel absolutely vulnerable but you don't care...

I was asked something yesterday and it's a question that I was expecting but with no answer still... if I were to jump again... I need to be sure... jumping into the valley of love is not exactly easy for me anymore but I do believe that there will have this moment where I just know that I love him...

L is a great guy with so much potential and fire in him... his passion in work and determination for success is what made him so attractive to me but also because of this... sense of security with him is unstable... probably have something to do with his financial stability or something like that... But apart from this... I feel more positivity and more alive when I am with him... maybe I just need to see him and really let him pampered me to have that moment...

P.S. When a moment like that comes, I won't be hesitate to show it =)

My study colors

"Study" is not exactly an exciting friend to hang out with... at least her partner "exam" is not that welcome~ haha~I notice that exam can became a giant pain in the ass~ but it can also be a great motivation if TIME is managed well~ =)

This semester,  I found that long lost joy in studying~ I am glad that it came back to me and I am glad that the motivation needed to do other things is the same motivation~~

Sometimes,  you just need to step out of stress from "exam" and be friends with "study"~ you might realized that she is fun to be with, and you 2 can share some favourite colors~ =)