What if?

Sometimes no matter how a person treat you...  You still feel like being with this person just have something to do with your future....  But somehow it have little to do with how you are feeling...

I am so addicted to warm body.. Sweet sense... Nice smile...  Then most of all...  Cute personality...  A mind that have certain similarities with you that I just don't know how to love others things as much...

I still want that fairy tale I heard about when I was 5 years old...  I still feel that when you really love a person...  You will feel like seeing each other... You wanna be noticed... And you feel shy and fluffy when you are with that right person...

What if what I want is a house of my own...  A car of my own...  And just be free to love a person even if no wealth is seen or touched? What if what I want is that butterfly I feel in my stomach?  What if all I want is to protect someone than being protected? What if what I like is really that shy smile I see...  What if that's all I need?  I want that person who can give me that...  I want that person who can make me nervous.... A person who can make me feel shy and make me smile like an idiot?

Moment :-)

There are things I am very confuse about will emerge out of nowhere from time to time... And I seem to be encountering one particularly confusing issue here~

I believe that if you are in love with a person... it happens in a moment... a moment that makes everything you see about him became magical... good... And makes you feel absolutely vulnerable but you don't care...

I was asked something yesterday and it's a question that I was expecting but with no answer still... if I were to jump again... I need to be sure... jumping into the valley of love is not exactly easy for me anymore but I do believe that there will have this moment where I just know that I love him...

L is a great guy with so much potential and fire in him... his passion in work and determination for success is what made him so attractive to me but also because of this... sense of security with him is unstable... probably have something to do with his financial stability or something like that... But apart from this... I feel more positivity and more alive when I am with him... maybe I just need to see him and really let him pampered me to have that moment...

P.S. When a moment like that comes, I won't be hesitate to show it =)