Wait until break~

Yesterday was my best friend's birthday, and I celebrated with her and it was great, everybody is happy^^ then I went to shop alone in the mall... feeling excited because I am going to see him finally~ n3n

But apparently... it's a very bad decision >< I was thinking that maybe a 2 hours shopping time is not a bad thing... ended up become almost 4 hours... because I was waiting and waiting and waiting for the "will leave earlier person"

When I finally see him from his usual lateness because "something" always came up last minute... what I felt was more like ok, let's play... without any sense of excitement or determination, because you are just there to complete a mission, because you already waited for so long... might as well play ~.~

I don't think that he even notice being late is his signature and telling me "something" came up had became his habit~ and he also didn't notice that when he tells "everyone" that his schedule is flexible and free, he is actually letting everyone else filling up his time and the worst part is I can't get angry because he is working and I have to be... have to be... have to be considerate =`)

Maybe he couldn't see it yet, but he isn't ready for a person like me =( I am looking for a future husband, and those "something" is breaking us apart... and I'll wait until someday one of us notice that this is not working and either he is going to leave me or the other way around... because from all these "something"... and the usual lateness and the usual scenario, that's the only possible outcome..

We are only at the beginning of this relationship and this is already the outcome... I am failing to see what is going to get better =_=lll

Lord, he is a great guy that I really really like, please grand him the wisdom to let me see that he is capable to sustain a functional relationship by planning something for me =)
Please guide me to see the greatness in this man so I can have the patient to wait... O:-) I believe that he is the right guy for me, but if being with the current him... means that Janice Choo needs to die :-\