Today I gave myself a chance to follow L around and see how he is like normally around his friends and colleagues... eventually I notice that he really got a little too much similarities with my dad...
How he spend is similar, how he find food is similar, but the bad part is, how he is making a living also reminds me a lot about my dad... and today, when we were in the car for the whole day, he then go meet a friend which I am totally cool with it, and after that, we go stay in another friend's house for the night, I got to admit that I feel very uneasy about it, I actually feel like I shouldn't have follow him here....
Now only I notice that what I wanted was a simple love, simple life with simple ppl, life is just too short to be with ppl that you are not happy with... and I don't feel happy with him... I know that I like being with him, I know that I love him, but I am just not happy when I am with him... I feel stress, and cautious about what I say and how I think became a question asked a million times a day towards me every time we talk... I don't like staying out long hours talking about stuff that I have no interest in and especially not after a long drive...
Stop asking me not to think and learn about my preference, because I am also a person with low patient.... if after 2 months then you still doesn't know about my preference and still being too focus on other stuff... then I don't see a point of keeping this on...
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