The love... It's gone

Have anyone of you experience this before?  The moments you have before flashes infront of you and you try to save your relationship and then just that one incident or one move happen... Then what you feel is gone...  Like you never love that person before?

Well...  I said that if a conversation is had right now...  He will regret it...  And now actually proves that I was right...  It's gone...  All that love I have for him and all those effort I made to change him and make this relationship work is gone...  Just like that...  The love is gone... 

I no longer feel like wanting to understand all this stuff...  I no longer feel the obligation to make any changes...  I just feel free and happy now...  That feeling is murdered just because he force me to put back on a facebook status...
I wish that I can somehow manage to save this relationship...  But apparently.... What's gone stays gone...  =）

What if?

Sometimes no matter how a person treat you...  You still feel like being with this person just have something to do with your future....  But somehow it have little to do with how you are feeling...

I am so addicted to warm body.. Sweet sense... Nice smile...  Then most of all...  Cute personality...  A mind that have certain similarities with you that I just don't know how to love others things as much...

I still want that fairy tale I heard about when I was 5 years old...  I still feel that when you really love a person...  You will feel like seeing each other... You wanna be noticed... And you feel shy and fluffy when you are with that right person...

What if what I want is a house of my own...  A car of my own...  And just be free to love a person even if no wealth is seen or touched? What if what I want is that butterfly I feel in my stomach?  What if all I want is to protect someone than being protected? What if what I like is really that shy smile I see...  What if that's all I need?  I want that person who can give me that...  I want that person who can make me nervous.... A person who can make me feel shy and make me smile like an idiot?