Cancer and lost game of lee zhong wei on national day~

I have no idea which is more depressing~ = ( The fact that Datuk Lee lost this badminton match on national day which make a lot of my coleagues lost their whole month salary... Some even lost everything!!! OR the fact that I just found out one of my friend, B, got throat cancer and is coughing blood constantly~ ><

What is wrong with today?!?!?! X(
I hate gamblers that have no sense of control!!! Why can't they just use their brain and do something useful with their money or simply just save it up?!?!?!

However, now that I think about it... I got my answer, cancer is more depressing... T-T
I have absolutely zero clue on what to say then I can't tell anyone else =_= I wish I could just shout at my friends and said... HE IS DYING!!! PLS SOMEBODY HELP HIM!!!

"L, you can't just walk towards B and care about him and suddenly become brothers to him after knowing him for a month~"
I can't even tell L that because he was just being nice and trying to show that he cares, but from the same action,  I think he is killing B faster than the cancer~ ><

I am feeling absolutely useless and guilty  right now and again.... I do feel like if I have more guts in me to say what's on my mind.. my life will be so much easier~ = (
If you are there GOD,  please guide me!!!

Graduation~

Well... last week I had my graduation, I was happy about the fact that I never have to go back utar again... haha~ so I guess taking Master in the near future is out of the question~ XP
During my graduation... Some friends travel from another states just to see me~ I am very very grateful and hope that someday, I can find someone worthy enough for me to do the same~ =)As for love life, I found out that being single is not a problem but staying as one is, I can't seem to stay single long enough to see a clear picture, so basically I am giving them a probation period~ Hoping that one of them may actually pass with a distinction or get terminated~ (obviously I am very rusty in dating and also very tired of it) ><

Well... no pain no gain so... go train some 6 packs or improve some English skills or maybe increase some income~ whichever you think is going to catch my attention,  do it~~ ^^

Favourite coleague^^

I like one of my coleagues a lot~ She is not the easy to know type but once you get to know her, she is the type of friend that you are glad to have =)

Hehe,  she doesn't show that she cares... but she will help when you needed it and when she jokes,  she is very serious.... hahahaha XD and when she smiles, she is actually very beautiful,  just that she doesn't do that often and give ppl a very ice cold feel~ ><
Sometimes I feel like her straightforward personality is what got her into trouble~ but it is also because of this personality, I find her very special~

Just now we went out to eat and she told me quite a lot of things, for the first time in this company,  I actually feel like this is what I should know and what I should feel when talking to a coleague =D

I wish that I can be friends with her instead of just coleagues, but then again,  I think we are already friends^^