Cancer and lost game of lee zhong wei on national day~

I have no idea which is more depressing~ = ( The fact that Datuk Lee lost this badminton match on national day which make a lot of my coleagues lost their whole month salary... Some even lost everything!!! OR the fact that I just found out one of my friend, B, got throat cancer and is coughing blood constantly~ ><

What is wrong with today?!?!?! X(
I hate gamblers that have no sense of control!!! Why can't they just use their brain and do something useful with their money or simply just save it up?!?!?!

However, now that I think about it... I got my answer, cancer is more depressing... T-T
I have absolutely zero clue on what to say then I can't tell anyone else =_= I wish I could just shout at my friends and said... HE IS DYING!!! PLS SOMEBODY HELP HIM!!!

"L, you can't just walk towards B and care about him and suddenly become brothers to him after knowing him for a month~"
I can't even tell L that because he was just being nice and trying to show that he cares, but from the same action,  I think he is killing B faster than the cancer~ ><

I am feeling absolutely useless and guilty  right now and again.... I do feel like if I have more guts in me to say what's on my mind.. my life will be so much easier~ = (
If you are there GOD,  please guide me!!!

Cult, addiction in gambling, superstitious~

Cult, addiction in gambling, superstitious~
All these can be seen as divian in some ppl's eyes~
Some may say these are all different kind of bad~
HOWEVER~~~
It all came from the same thing within us~
It is call DESIRE,
The desire to seek purpose, the desire to fit in, the desire to hope for something better~

Cults gain success by targeting ppl that have no direction, ppl that seek to belong. While gambling is not about buying the cards, but buying a hope, buying that short moment of joy and maybe. Being superstitious is the same thing, everything around you is an uncertainty, so you choose to believe in something, anything. What I see, is not what my textbook says, What I see in these ppl, they are merely trying to survive~ Their minds are distorted and their heart is empty~ This is the reason why even a tiny sparks of hope can win over their soul~

The world is full of ppl that is weak, vulnerable, and maybe pitiful~ But~ all we really wanted, is to BELONG~ "Share some love, we are all linked
" =)