Taste of memories~

Sometimes memories can have nothing to do with you... but you can feel that overwhelming space of "just something" =)

I am in this place call "just something" enjoying a great feel of joy and peace~~^^

Together with a soft male voice singing soothing songs~~ =D 

So perfect!!!

Blue note 2

Well... I am a no quiting person so when my note 2 had a cracked screen... I refuse to spend rm700 to fix it so I dig~
I dig up how to fix my screen myself and found out that there is no need to change my LCD... just the glass is enough~
Then I found the product in eBay. .. I bought the titanium grey glass... then successfully fix it...
Today... I finally got the blue glass... cover... and also casing from eBay. .. I even change the middle chassis to white color because it suits blue more... haha...
So... In conclusion... I got my blue note 2!!! Hahahaha XD

Cosplay at comic fiesta

I been wanting to try cosplay for long now... and I was given a chance when comic fiesta is here =)

I like the way I look despite the soreness caused by the shoes... wig and contect lens~ haha XP

TRY!!! Never try... never know~ XD

Hamsters~ Muffin and sundae

Well... I lost 3 hamsters a week b4 I came back home... tragedy =(

But I still left 2... just finished giving them a bath... coated them with baby powder... clean their home... refill the water bottle and I made some adjustment in order to add a fan for them too~ =)

I have done all I can for muffin and sundae... so now... I am satisfied with their look of enjoyment here~ hehe~♥

Bullies

I was the victim of bullies when I was a kid, and I was force to be quiet and let the rage change me~
Back in the days, bullies use violence but what I had is not it~ what I encounter is isolation, verbal accusation and also mental torture~ I was so tormented those years, I let rage take away my smile and at the end, anger became my world~~
However, I was lucky that my dare devil kicks in when I hit puberty, hahaha~ XP

The truth is~ Humans are pathetic and weak creatures who don't know what's right or wrong~ We have to learned it~ AND bullies... well... they are just dumb dumbs who wanted everything before any learning~ haha~ End up... bullying became a way for them to gain control over something that they couldn't understand or have~ SO~ LEARNED~!!! Let yourself evolve than being them~!!!

I LEARNED TO BE A BETTER PERSON JUST BACAUSE I CAN~ I learned to let other ppl help me, I learned how to have a bigger world than this few person in this tiny little school~ I learned that I can always choose other friends, I can always just walk away, I learned how to ignore~ MOST OF ALL~ I LEARNED HOW TO LOVE MYSELF MORE~ =D

Don't ever let the rage change you, it's not worth it~ Don't ever let them make you think you are not good enough~ Because it's not bullies that are the problem here, it's u!!! BECAUSE.... u gave them permission to bully u when u didn't do anything... because u let them think that they are better than u, u r the one who gave them the power~!!! u!!! So take charge~!!! Tell the principle, ANYONE!!! (WHY CAN'T U???? U ALREADY GOT NOTHING TO LOSE~!!!)

WIN BY BECOME A PERSON THAT IS BETTER THAN THEM~!!!

Clubbing

Built some memories! !! Do some wrong!!! Haha~~ dance dance dance!!! Drink drank drunk!!! Hahahahahahaha!!!

Popularity~ hello kitty

Guitar~ Sungha Jung~ inspiration =)

It's been a while since I last touched my acoustic guitar~ and it took me one click to a video today as a reminder of why I learned to play it at the first place~ =)

I was listening to "Sungha Jung-love somebody" and it hit me~~ It was always my dream to just pick up an instrument and play my favourite song~ To just drowned in the musical notes~^^

He had became my inspiration and created that long lost determination in me~ I will find that will to play and kill all those excuses~ XD

I guess I forgotten about all those simple dreams I had in these crazy world~ hmm~ but.... let the past be the past~ I have decided to pick up that guitar once more and I will play my favourite song on it someday~ ^.^~ 

Let's just hope that the blister isn't that bad this time~ haha XP

Unforeseen peace~

Today is a day with a lot of unfulfilled determination~ >. <
Wanting to go jogging this morning but end up slept through it...
Then waking up eating two buns as my lunch together with half pack of sunflower seeds~~
Finishing this disappointing day with a plate of rice that is similar to a block of clay~ XP

Haha~ surprisingly~ my peace is now inside this shop with a hot cup of chocolate ~ =)
Happiness always appear in unexpected places~♥♥♥

My study colors

"Study" is not exactly an exciting friend to hang out with... at least her partner "exam" is not that welcome~ haha~I notice that exam can became a giant pain in the ass~ but it can also be a great motivation if TIME is managed well~ =)

This semester,  I found that long lost joy in studying~ I am glad that it came back to me and I am glad that the motivation needed to do other things is the same motivation~~

Sometimes,  you just need to step out of stress from "exam" and be friends with "study"~ you might realized that she is fun to be with, and you 2 can share some favourite colors~ =)

Great memories vs consequences

Behind every enjoyment we have... there are always consequences~ This is the reason why certain things...we remain quiet~

For instance~ what happened inside club, we just let it stay there~ Because there are certain time... we just wanna let loose.. and just be irresponsible for a moment~

If even when we go play,  we can't let loose... then it's just the matter of time for us to explode~~ =)

Choosing a time to let loose is not irresponsible~ It's just a way to keep us sane~♥♥♥

Prevention~ Protection~

I can't remember the details of my dreams today but somehow, it made me think that I need a folding knife~

Haha~ I can't explain why but I do that I wanna have a folding knife~ A bit unusual for a girl, but it kinda got me thinking that, maybe I really needed one~

Nowadays, the world is full with danger no matter where you go and, having a folding knife could come in handy and it just save your life someday~ or.... just to a little less dramatic, a can of pepper spray might not be such a bad idea after all~ Haha~XP

"Keep yourself save, prevention is a necessity =)" 

Cult, addiction in gambling, superstitious~

Cult, addiction in gambling, superstitious~
All these can be seen as divian in some ppl's eyes~
Some may say these are all different kind of bad~
HOWEVER~~~
It all came from the same thing within us~
It is call DESIRE,
The desire to seek purpose, the desire to fit in, the desire to hope for something better~

Cults gain success by targeting ppl that have no direction, ppl that seek to belong. While gambling is not about buying the cards, but buying a hope, buying that short moment of joy and maybe. Being superstitious is the same thing, everything around you is an uncertainty, so you choose to believe in something, anything. What I see, is not what my textbook says, What I see in these ppl, they are merely trying to survive~ Their minds are distorted and their heart is empty~ This is the reason why even a tiny sparks of hope can win over their soul~

The world is full of ppl that is weak, vulnerable, and maybe pitiful~ But~ all we really wanted, is to BELONG~ "Share some love, we are all linked
" =)

Presentation

I just finished a presentation~  Feeling a sense of relieve right now~ =)

Presentation is unavoidable~ It's a form of interaction~ Some find it hard... some overdo it and most of us tend to just give up and simply read from the slides~

Well~ I am those who never have much problems with presentation,  in fact, I love it~^^

Why and how? Because it's a time where others finally see my work~ It's never about memorising the points but, having interaction, delivering a content, and u r connecting ~ I guess this is why I love it and this is why ppl listens to me... because I am talking to them,  not became a speaker~ XP

Hope that ppl who are facing troubles with presentation will learned how to talk to ur audience soon~ =)

Darkness and Strength

There is this stress in my heart where my throat drys,
There is this fear in my bones where my skin chills,
There is this path in my mind where my heart froze.

I am in a place where nobody helps~
I am in a time where nobody cares~
I can no longer dream, I can no longer hope~
My rest is fill with nightmares, my wait is fill with hollow~


I can't see my future, I can't see my tomorrow~
But who am I to see, and who am I to know~
The unknown is the reason why man thrive, the unknown is the reason why life shine~

I am a mortal, I am a girl,
I make mistake, I make change,
I couldn't change what I couldn't see,
But I can make how I want to live.

Flu~

It's that time of the year again... flu season... Every time when ppl around me start to get flu... I will be fine... but... when they almost heal... it's my turn~ =_=lll

This fella fall sick also slower than ppl~
But I am wining this war d~ for those who are fighting~ no matter what disease or war~ Support support you =)

My forgotten Beginning

When things are messy and you lost your direction~
STOP~!!!
Breath and go back to the beginning~
Sometimes~~ how you start is where you are comfortable at~ and along the way~ you might have already picked up the solution that you simply forgot about it~
So Stop... and go back~ ♥